I read this article today about a disorganised mind and how it can affect you. Whilst it's actually a LinkedIn article geared towards being more 'productive', the points it discusses about symptoms of a disorganised mind were interesting. And kind of hit a little close to home for me.So recently I've been feeling a little on edge, my emotions have been pretty at the surface and I have been known to cry very easily this last week. Not necessarily bad crying but simply because I've been feeling a little raw sometimes, small things can set me off. Sometimes in a happy way, sometimes in a decidedly bad way.
But anyways, I didn't realise it but I think my mind has been a little cluttered and turbulent recently. When I was reading the article, it listed that some of the symptoms of someone suffering from a disorganised mind include:
- Making impulsive judgments, angrily rushing to bring closure
- Robbed of flexibility, sense of humour and ability to deal with the unknown
- Forgets the big picture and the goals and values he stands for
- Loses creativity and ability to change plans
I think most people talking to me will see that I am fine, and for the most part I am. But small things I've noticed in myself is that I really like to stick to my plan now, it bothers me a little if I had an intended outline of things I needed to do, and then something comes and throws it all off. Not that this is a bad thing - I think it's good for me to develop my focus - but I just notice that it's a difference to how I used to be. I really used to be quite laissez-faire about how my days went, always going on whims and doing whatever here and there, spending hours doing this or bumping into this person or that person. I mean, I like both and I think a balance is good. But the difference is still very strange for me and I'm still getting used to this new decrease in flexibility.
Another thing I've noticed is that sometimes jokes whoosh over my head and I probably take something a bit too seriously. This has only happened a few times, and usually with Mr. Human, but yeah still something I'm conscious of.
So yeah, it seems I might have a bit of a disorganised mind so it's nice to realise now. The first step is acceptance haha.
In other news, some updates from my life:
1. I stopped using body soap last week, just as a personal experiment. Hahahahahhaha.
To clarify my reasoning, it's because I've been reading something called the Moneyless Manifesto by Mark Boyle. And whist I don't really think all his ways of thinking aligns with my personal ideals, he made a good point to me about soap. His reasoning is that the body just does not need soap because, whilst soap does wash dirt particles away, it also carries away oil from your skin. And yes, sometimes this is bad oil which you don't want. But other times, this can be the good oils that your skin produces. So I just decided to give it a go for fun haha.
I didn't tell anyone except my brother, cause I theorised that if I did, people might have a mental stigma where they would think they could smell me. So officially, I started 26th October and am now on Day 10 of not using body soap when showering. Thus far no one has said anything about me being smelly and I do still shower everyday. In fact, when I wash my skin with water, I actually get that clean feeling, like you know that feeling when you've washed the soap off a plate and it just has that resistant CLEAN feeling to it. So surprisingly my skin has been quite soft and clean thus far. But you know what, if you smell me, tell me haha.
2. I switched my default search engine yesterday from Google to DuckDuckGo.
Basically, DDG's key offering is that it's a search engine that does not track you. According to the trusty Wikipedia page "DuckDuckGo is an Internet search engine that emphasizes protecting searchers' privacy and avoiding the filter bubble of personalized search results. DuckDuckGo distinguishes itself from other search engines by not profiling its users and by deliberately showing all users the same search results for a given search term". Thus far it's only been one day so I will report more on this later.